why life cant be easier

As i sit her listening to my favorite band, Disturbed, i wonder why life has to be so difficult. Doesn't everyone wish that life came with a manual? I know i wish it did. My life just keeps getting harder and harder everyday. My job is ok, but the heat is making it harder. School will be starting on monday and im stressed out about that caue im not that smart and I have done poorly in college for the past year. I try so hard but it is never good enough for my parent who i stll live with at almost 20. I wanna move out but my parents don't want me to for some reason. Then there is my relationship with my girlfriend. We are not agreeing with anything, we are very opposite on eveyrthing from religion tp politics. She's southern baptist and im atheist and she is conserative and I am liberal. The main thing is that we love each other and have been together for almost a year. I don't like to talk to people because I am very anti-social, so I just write everything down or type it. This is my first blog. I hope anyone who reads it enjoy's it. Please comment. Thank you.



Kevin